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Name: Amy
Location: Florida, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: I enjoy learning the Japanese language, cooking, and baking. I'm currently studying to receive my food management license so that I can sell baked goods (among other things) at a local fleamarket.
Expertise: loving God and sharing his love, being oblivious to the obvious, acting like a hypocrite (though not intentionally!),
being a sinner
Occupation: currently unemployed
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Flutist4Jesus114
MSN: fanaticbaker14@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  Jesusbeloved29@yahoo.com
Member Since:
8/20/2005
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| My "first first" job was as cashier at McDonald's; I was about sixteen or seventeen, and worked there for about 3 months. My first real job was as a bagger at a grocery store. I worked there for 4 years.
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| The holidays were interesting I suppose. My boyfriend and I cooked a huge dinner on Thanksgiving and my family came over and celebrated with us (my mom and two of my brothers).
For Christmas, I basically just did some charity stuff like normal. Essentially that consisted of putting together some care packages for two of my friends; one of my friends is pregnant and is expecting her baby in February. So I made a baby care package for her. Bought some toys for a couple children for a program called Angel Tree. That was very ironic to me because normally you pick an angel off the Christmas tree and then you get clothes for the child that correspond with the gender and age of the child. For some reason they decided to change it
around.
I spent the afternoon with my family on Christmas day. I ate dinner with them and then opened the presents from my mom.
I recently had my birthday on January 12th. Went out to dinner and then to a movie in the same evening.
My boyfriend ordered a bunch of stuff for me off the internet as combinations of Christmas and
birthday presents for me. I received a game for the Playstation called Crusader's of Might and Magic; it's interesting though the controls are kind of awkward, and if I die in the game I have to start right from
the beginning. I also received some ramekins (you use them to bake custard or flan) and two books
on Japanese.
We're moving to Georgia in February. I really hope things in my life become better because of this move.
I want to start a catering business from home eventually. I would at least like to start making the
preparations to start it this year. I know I have to get food management and business licenses
to accomplish this goal; I hope to attain those this year. Being able to make a coherent sentence in Japanese
that's longer than 5 words long is something I hope to achieve this year.
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| I hate my life. I hate people. I'm sick of my hurt emotions being treated like they don't exist. I'm disgusted with people being so absorbed with their own lives they don't think about how their actions affect others; as a result of their selfishness others suffer the consequences of their actions. I've been treated like I don't exist for the past 2-1/2 years. People claiming to be my friends have treated me like dirt; they have just allowed the relationship to drift and haven't even attempted semi-consistent communication. In approximately 2 years I've moved three times. Anything I have held dear that brought enjoyment to me, has been uprooted from me. Every time my boyfriend and I start to get ahead financially something happens so that we end up broke or struggling again. People choose to reject me because the message isn't positive like they want to hear, people claiming to
be my friends. I'm sick of people saying they know how I feel, when
half of them don't even know the pain and sorrow I'm in and aren't even
in the situation I'm in; they say they can relate but a majority of them
can't. People keep saying things will get better and when I hear that
they become worse or don't improve. I hate living life just to
survive. I'm angry, I'm bitter, and I'm fatigued in every aspect of the word-physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally. I'm sick of being patient; my patience has worn thin. Things will never become better; life is hopeless. I see things going lovely or well for people in my life. This happens for them; but good things that I desire to happen in my life, goals I desire to accomplish haven't come true; I'm sick of my soul feeding
off broken dreams and broken promises. When will it be my turn for things to go right? That I have prosperity and happiness? I'm sick of watching prosperity and happiness happen for others and yet blessings and
hope pass me by.
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| Christians are extremely annoying to me right now. They've left a very bad taste in mouth. You'd think I could rely upon them in the good and bad times; I was sadly mistaken. I seem to notice a lovely trend that has developed in the body of Christ. Christians will flock to you like white on rice when things are going great in your life, your pleasant to be around, have a positive attitude, and are incessantly spouting good news.
Yet when you're real about your problems, cynical, have lost hope because things just become worse and backfire no matter what you do to make them better, are in pain and sorrow, and not the most pleasant person to be around they avoid you like the plague. They condemn you for being real about your problems; that you should see the good in life.
Fyi, when you're going through an extremely difficult time in your life and when nothing is going right, it's extremely hard to see the good things because very little is going right; I know from personal experience. Oh yeah, and it's like it's some horrible sin for them to be happy for me when I'm in a romantic relationship. Instead they're just skeptical about it, and making a plethora of assumptions about the relationship and my boyfriend; when they know don't know the first thing about him or the relationship we have. Since I choose to live a different lifestyle then the lifestyle they choose to live, they assume it's ungodly and wrong because it's different; no that's not condescending or trying to play God at all.
Then there is this perspective they imply through their actions which annoys me to no end. They claim that relationships they have with other Christians are important; that they love and care about their brother/sister in Christ. Yet then they become so busy with their own lives that they just allow the relationship with the person to drift. They minimize their actions like they're not even doing anything wrong; half the time they don't even realize they're doing this. Yet it can cause the other person pain emotionally and make them feel very lonely. If you care about the person you'll make time for the relationship you have with them, even if your life becomes busy and chaotic. Nobody is perfect I realize this, but it's the attempt and effort that counts and if God sees you're trying, well that's good enough for him; sadly I see Christians so absorbed with their own lives they don't even try. For Christians to do this is hypocrisy.
Another thing I see Christians doing is something that completely contradicts Scripture. Jesus said to look at the plank in your own eye before you try to remove the speck from your brother's eye. Yet I see Christians taking the focus of their sin so they can point out what everything the other person is doing wrong. When it comes to actually acknowledging their sin and that they did hurt another person because of the selfishness of their actions, they're reluctant to admit they did anything wrong because it means relinquishing their pride and putting their
ego on the line.
Granted I know I struggle with sins, jealousy and being cynical. I don't try to condemn anybody; I just be honest about the major problems I see in the body of Christ. I think these problems are exacerbated in the United States because this me-first-instant-gratification philosophy is projected everywhere throughout our society; it influences Christians whether they realize it or not. There are two ways of judging; judging in a condemning way and using constructive criticism to judge. I try to use constructive criticism to judge.
Today my brother came down to visit me. I made him chocolate dipped peppermint coconut macaroons.
We then went to eat ribs
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